Sunday, March 10, 2013

On Loss, Acceptance, And Moving On

We have had a pair of big losses here the last few months, first my father, in the fall, and then the mister's mother, just last month.  Loss is nothing new to me; my own mother passed away unexpectedly when I was still in college.  Having had that experience, I had naively thought that when a passing was expected, when there was time to say good bye, that the loved one now gone had lived a long, beautiful life, that it would somehow be easier.  I can now unequivocally state that I was wrong.  Utterly, totally and completely wrong.  I was only just starting to make peace with the loss of my father when we were blindsided by the death of my (future) mother in law.  Although her passing was not unexpected, we were hoping for more time.  Gratefully however, we did not behave as if there was more time.

Pictured above, Christmas 2012, is the mister, holding our fur baby Phoebe, his mom, dad, and me, holding Dawson.  We also returned to Florida in January to celebrate her 88th birthday.  Eighty-eight!  It certainly was a beautiful life well lived.  And that helps to ease the pain.

As you may know if you have visited here before, we have been planning a major move for over a year now. I had sincerely thought as 2013 began that by now it would be much further along; that my studio space in our new home up north would be complete, and that I would be back to work, albeit part time.  However, that was just a bit too optimistic of me!  But the news is good.  We are making progress, and I fully expect to be sharing details of the process (just the creative parts: I won't bore you with the tedious!) very, very soon.

I would also like to thank those of you who have sent an email, a tweet or left a Facebook comment during this unexpected absence from blogging.  Your support and friendship means so much.  I am finding inspiration on this first day of daylight savings time; it feels like a new season and a fresh start.  And that's a good thing!

Thank you so much for reading.

xoxo, Anita

p.s. I cannot let pass an opportunity to give a shout out to two of my favorite things, hand made and small business, by telling you that the green silk lounge wear I am wearing in the photo above was made just for me by one of my favorite shops on Etsy, Sandmaiden.  Give it a visit!