Have you ever had one of those days, or perhaps even several of them in a row, where you realize that you've allowed yourself to be negatively affected by something that you have no control over? And then, at the moment you allow that realization in, you further realize that what has been bothering you is insignificant and unworthy of your attention?
I had the realization regarding the insignificance of what had been keeping me in a funk for a few days yesterday afternoon, and it was such a dramatic shift in perception as to warrant being the sole focus of my reflection on bliss this week.
For a long time, I was told almost daily that I was wrong, insignificant, less than. Though I knew intellectually that it was not true, it took a constant exercise of will and determination not to allow this verbal assault to wear me down.
Although I would never have believed it eight years ago when I put that life behind me, the memories of that constant barrage have faded, taking with them the built in resistance. I realized this when I began to receive cruel written taunts on my blog, starting the day that I published my How To Build A Blog You Truly Love class post for an assignment and link up about brave blogging.
After the initial shock of that first comment, which I immediately deleted as I have done every one since, I posted about it on the class Facebook page, and received just the support I needed to weather through the next few days of receiving and deleting comments. But they did begin to wear me down, and I admit to being bothered by them.
Until the shift that occurred yesterday afternoon. It was like an infusion of light on my soul! But that is not all of it. What brought me to an even deeper feeling of bliss was realizing that I finally have the life I prayed for all of those years. Not perfect, sometimes even difficult, but filled with light and love that keeps me safe from the nightmares. I will never ask for more than that. To me, that is everything. That is my true bliss.
I'm linking up again today with Liv Lane and the little Bliss List linky party on her Choosing Beauty blog. Join us! The artwork that I've featured in this post has all been created by Liv, and is available in her Etsy shop. It felt appropriate to share these with you today, the final day of the class that she leads and I 've been taking (and writing about!) for the last six weeks. I am sorry to see it end, but beyond grateful for what I have learned, and for the fabulous group of women that shared the journey. Let's keep our Facebook group the nurturing and supportive place that it has been throughout for a long time to come, ladies! I'm grateful to all of you. And look at that; more bliss. I am truly blessed.
Are you feeling blessed today? Please share; I would love to hear!